well would you take a look at that

weird

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 20:09:21 GMT

i'm still living in colorado. very exciting indeed. i've been working a shitload and otherwise just riding my bike around downtown and sleeping. great! goodbye

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 16:33:03 GMT

man, i dont even remember the last time i updated this thing! but oh well, life is great. i have a loving boyfriend, about to get promoted at work, i have a car, a pregnant cat, and days full of friends/beer/music! i've been in colorado for almost a year. well, a year in august. but hey! my birthday is in less than a month! yessss. fun fun fun. sometimes i still cant get over the fact that i live 2000 miles away from the people i grew up with and my family and close friends. but its exciting to say that i did get out and away! i am experiencing new things and new people and more beautiful scenery and weather than i would have ever seen in south florida haha. lovely lovely. i miss everyone!

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 03:32:47 GMT

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! yes it was!

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 18:52:47 GMT

ATTENTION ATTENTION ALERT ALERT!!

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN A WEEK! FOR ANYONE PLANNING ON GIVING ME ANYTHING AT ALL! JUST SAVE YOUR PENNIES AND GIVE ME WHAT YOU CAN TO HELP MY MOVE OUT OF STATE! THATS ALL IM ASKING FOR THIS YEAR!!! I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER AND EVVVVVVER! AND YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A PLACE (SOMEWHERE) IN MY HOME ONCE IM SETTLED!!!

just think about it.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 05:29:28 GMT

LOUDERRR: haha i tohught it was funny that you said you thought i was scary when i was angry on the phone
relerichard: you were! i thought for a second that my mom was on the phone. you have a really good way of making people feel really dumb for their actions.
relerichard: and you're always right! it's scary.
LOUDERRR: hahahaha
LOUDERRR: i try i try

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 11:58:23 GMT

hahahaha woah woah.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 00:35:20 GMT

SPACED OUT!

so i have a new hair color. it looks like tobasco sauce. so call me toby from now on.

I HOPE YOU LEFT ROOM FOR MY FIST

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 09:29:19 GMT

BECAUSE IM GOING TO RAM IT INTO YOUR STOMACH AND RIP OUT YOUR GODDAMN SPINE!!!!!!!!

I'M OFF PROBATION! FINALLY!
I FOUND A JOB. THAT I ACTUALLY LIKE!
THE LADY THAT I WORKS WITH IS HILARIOUS! ANNDD!! SHE CALLS ME KIDDO!
IM SEEING MARS VOLTA!
IM SEEING CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY AT THE IMAX!
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH!
IM MOVING IN LIKE TWO MONTHS OR SOMETHING!!
VEGAN FEST WAS A LOT OF FUN! I LOVED IT.
i'm just doing great.

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 18:42:31 GMT

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. Put this in your journal

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 06:32:02 GMT

Mon, 30 May 2005 07:07:42 GMT

Mon, 23 May 2005 06:46:11 GMT

RANDOM PICTURES!

Sat, 21 May 2005 03:56:17 GMT

it's weird how life turns completely around in a split second. every day for the past week or so i think i have either cried or at least gotten my feelings hurt. i'm anxious all the time because i feel like everyones looking at me thinking im such a failure at anything and everything. no one gives me the benefit of the doubt or a second chance, when thats all i ever do for people. you could do the most fucked up thing to me but if you had a good explaination id probably forgive you. well im done with all that i think. im sick of being looked at as if im the worst person on earth when i make mistakes. mistakes that i dont even consider mistakes until im repremanded by someone else. oh but no one else EVER makes mistakes. i must just be so incredibly awesome that everyone has to know when i fuck up so they can talk shit about me.

i had such a bad anxiety attack last night that i couldnt do anything except sit in the car on the ride home from the district and try to not think about anything. i ended up throwing up in a publix bag on the way because of my anxiety. what the fuck kind of bullshit is that? when did this shit start with me? ive never had a problem with anxiety. ever. my life is such a mess right now i cant even begin to explain. i dont want to explain.

my family thinks im the most disrespectful and selfish person in the world. they tell me it everyday almost. its really nice to recieve phone calls from your mom while youre out saying GET YOUR FUCKING ASS HOME BEFORE I FUCKING FIND YOU AND KICK YOUR FUCKING ASS AND DRAG YOU OUT BY YOUR FUCKNG HAIR IN FRONT OF YOUR LITTLE FUCKING FRIENDS. its also really awesome that now my dad thinks im that way too. my dad of all people, the one person i thought i could run to when my mom was being ridiculous because my stepdad has her on a tight leash. now i have no one. i cant trust anyone now. theres no one just there for me to call and tell my problems to anymore. i dont feel right baring down on friends with that kind of stuff because i feel like a bother. i have too many problems on my table to be able to feel ok piling it onto someone else. most of the time when i try everyone changes the subject anyway. so thats super awesome.

im thinking once im 18 im going to just save up money for a little while and then pick up all my shit and leave. ill find a college wherever i end up. im not oging to tell anyone that im leaving. im just going to go. one day ill just be gone. mark my words.

im a great person. or at least i think so, and i just dont understand why no one else seems to see that. ?

Thu, 19 May 2005 15:19:39 GMT

"make a move on me baby, i can't be the one always taking chances."

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 06:01:31 GMT

1) my sister and i alone carry the gronseth trait of being super AwEsOmE
2) rachel and i have decided that we just want nice boys that want to sit with us and have puzzle double dates together where we just sit around and piece together puzzles with them. wouldnt that just be sweet.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 02:33:45 GMT

i don't understand life sometimes. but i expect that no one does. i know that everyone has problems in their lives but i always feel like mine are singled out and so much worse. this past year has been one of the worst for me. its just been one thing after the other and it just wont let up. now im sick and have to go to the hospital every other day for blood transfusions or blood work or some other kind of test. i feel like im being looked at like im about to die. i'm also sick of feeling like im getting nowhere. i feel stuck. i want to meet new people and have new experiences without any problems. i dont understand why its so hard for people to talk to me or start a friendship. i have no problem becoming friends with anyone. i'm also very very veryveryvery sick of people having certain opinions of me. im sick of being thought of as the bitch who doesnt talk to anyone. or the asshole who isnt having any fun. im not a bitch (unless for good reason) and i am the most easily amused person ever which means i have a good time doing anything at all. i sit at home and do puzzles and color for gods sake.

im ready for change. for a big change actually. i want to start a new chapter in my life but i dont know where to start. i need hints somehow or maybe someone needs to just hit me over the head with what it is i should do about all this nonsense. i just want to be completely happy for once. i want to have a life again and i want great people to share it with.

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 21:45:40 GMT

newhairnewhairnewhairnewhair

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 03:13:12 GMT

I'M SO BORED! WITH EVERYTHING!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 23:55:01 GMT

im out of the hospital. thank you to those who sent me letters. hopefully once im better ill actually be able to get out and see the ones i looove.

i had a lot of time to think while i was in the hospital and theres just a few things i want to start working on.

too kaylas friends..

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 19:21:45 GMT

Kayla has been in the hospital since Thursday. She was feeling pretty sick and had to have 4 blood transfusions. She is doing better now and should be coming home soon. If you would like, you can send a get well email to her mom, and shes printing them out and giving them to her. Her email is smae5160@yahoo.com. Subject it *get well wishes*. She will be home soon enough! Thanks for all the love and letters shes gotten so far.

xo

Holly

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 17:29:14 GMT

i think it's funny when you know that something isnt working. for instance a computer (like in my english class that im in right now). especially when you just sit back and watch everyone wander up to it and sit down. then they finally realize after banging the mouse on the desk a couple times or pressing ctrl+alt+delete 48734879348 times, that the damn thang aint gonna work. shortly after they just silently stand up and walk to another computer like nothing ever happened. what dumbies.

dum-ees
not
dum-bees

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 21:31:41 GMT

OOOOOOOOOOH SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!! bitch got stuck.

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 18:05:58 GMT

i hate that empty feeling you get sometimes in the middle of your chest.
i hate not having something or someone to look forward to.
i hate finishing books too fast and going for days in between without anything to read.
i hate that people let their boyfriends/girlfriends decide who they get to interact with.
i hate that i dont have a reason to constantly smile.
i hate that songs remind me of old memories that will never happen again.
i hate that i can never find that one person that gives me butterflies everytime i see them.
i hate that no one feels that way about me.
i hate having things to hate.

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 13:19:17 GMT

I honestly wish last night could be played on repeat

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 01:44:42 GMT

i'm a sleepwalker now too supposedly.